| | So i'm here at EMT class, learning how to save people's lives. You would think that it would be a pretty high commitment right? that people would want to learn this stuff? that this should be something pretty important? but no.... apparently sorority recruitment is more important! GAH. stupid girls leaving to do stupid sorority shit...every one else is here. everybody else would LOVE to be doing something else, but we're still here. fuckin people can't take any responsibility and have their priorities out of whack. I hope they fuckin fail...i would never trust them with my life. | comments: 18 comments or Leave a comment   |
| I really hate working. A lot. I wish I could stay in school forever.
Went home this weekend for my sisters graduation. Spent a lot of time with various family members. Alex came with me so that was fun. We saw Harry Potter 3, I liked it the best so far.
A lot of stuff has been going on lately that has really been stressing me out. I almost wish I was home being bored out of my mind, but then I would be feeling guilty about not "utilizing my potential".
The hardest part about studying for the MCAT is staying inside when it is sooo nice out :[
Well, back to work....I'm in the middle of a PCR-how exciting, huh?!?! | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| The past is just the past, but it can still hurt. You may change, but you will always be a product of who you were. You can only hope that those you love now can see your current self.
Alex,
I will never forgive myself for what I did. But I have to tell the world how you have changed me. You have made me a better person every day that I have known you. When we first started dating I was lost, confused, I didn't know what it was like to be in a relationship. I didn't know that love actually existed, that honesty meant something. I thought all guys thought and acted the same way, and this mindset was governing my every move. You changed my mind. You showed me there was something better out there. You showed me that some people care about more than just boobs and butts.
Every time I think of what we have together, I thank whoever is listening. I remind myself daily that I was finally lucky enough to be with someone so beautiful and loving. I hope that what we have is strong enough to pull through any bad times that we may have in the future, and I can see from today that we have a pretty good start. I will never understand what I did to deserve someone as amazing as you, Alex, I can only do everthing in my power not to mess it up.
I love you.
Yours forever,
Amanda | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Ugh | | Time: | 06:39 pm | | Current Mood: | sickly |
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| It finally hit me. I'm sick as well :[ At least tomorrow is Friday- that means payday!
my classes are improving marginally...only a few more weeks to go. I've also been spending a lot of time at work...Staining slides takes along time. I was there for 3.5 hours one day and 4.5 hours the next...and I only did 5 slides! Craziness.
Not much else has been going on. Just waiting for the weather, my health and my mood to improve. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | everything mix | | Subject: | 4 months! | | Time: | 08:16 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) loved |
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| Today is Alex and my 4 month anniversary <3
This weekend we saw Dawn of the Dead. It was gory, over the top, suspensful and comptletly enjoyable. MUCH better than 28 Days Later.
Alex went and made me breakfast the other day in Fribley. He brought me a ham and cheese omlette and a bowl of my favortie fruit. I swear he is the sweetest guy in existance.
My classes are margianlly better, but still no chance of a 4.0 this semester :[
I miss my old friends.
and finally:
KRUESE AND MUER IS A RESTURANT....IT DOES EXIST AND I DID WORK THERE. It is not just some mumbo-jumbo I made up....and they do have REALLLLLY good bread.
so there. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| Complain complain complain. comment on my current state of classes. mention something about Alex. describe the weather, more complaining. Oh yeah, don't forget to mention seomthing good or exciting I'm looking forward to.
hmmm....I seem to be in a very bitter mood today and I don't know why. Oh well. Spring break was ok....it was a lot of money, a lot of driving, a lot of sunburn, a lot of arguing and a lot of time away from Alex, soooooooooo
Even though I had to celebrate it late, Alex managed to make it my best 20th birthday ever. <3
oh yes, I almost forgot:
SUGAR NOODLE!!!! | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Cake | | Subject: | like woah | | Time: | 04:23 pm | | Current Mood: | relaxed |
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| I know I know
Alex came with me to Frankenmuth this past weekend which was so much fun. We walked around town, did some shopping, looked at all the snow and ice sculptures and relaxed in the hot tub...mmmmm 10 hours of traveling to get home while carrying multiple heavy bags is not fun though. :[
Physics really rellllllly realllllly really sucks. As does over sleeping for lab. As does cold windy weather and 5 page essays.
I'm so excited cause a bunch of us are going to Florida for spring break....which isn't that exciting I admit....but how about being in KEY WEST on my BIRTHDAY!!!! can you say w00t?
It's weird because you would think that being in my first serious relationship would make me all excited about having someone to spend Valentine's day with....but really it's just shown me how truly silly the entire concept of valentines day is. I wish more people could see that and not feel obligated to buy gifts for people....I especially hate girls who expect shit and get all pissy if they don't get something. that annoys me to no end. then again....most girls just annoy me in general, so I guess it's nothing new.
I must say...as much as I like sleeping, staying up till six in the morning talking to Alex is infinitely more fun and satisfying. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Things are going good for me here at school. I've got so much to be happy for, and so much to look forward to, it's hard sometimes to focus on what needs to get done. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| So I'm down in good 'ol Parma Ohio, visiting my Alex. He had to go to work for a little while, so I'm actually home alone here, which is a little weird, but I guess I'll get used to it. His mom should be home soon, so that should be intersting. So anyways, since I have nothing better to do, I am going to actually fill out a little survey thingy I saw:
--me
Name:: Amanda
Birthday:: 03.09.1984
Eye Color:: blue
Hair Color:: brown, ugh
Weight:: I won't even tell ALex....
Shoe Size:: 8 1/2 or 8 (depends on brand)
Name of your school:: Case Western Reserve University
Do you Have braces?:: Well, I did....
Do you Wear contacts?:: nope
Where were you born?:: Grosse Pointe Michigan, Bon Sequer Hospital
How much did you weigh when you were born?:: Don't know
Do you have a retainer?:: no
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: yep
What color was your hair when you were born?:: Blonde (Crazy, I know)
--fam
Are your parents Married or Divorced?:: Married
How many siblings do you have?:: 2
What are their names?:: Michael and Melinda
Do you have any step brothers/sisters?:: no
Get along with your family?:: my sis and I are a lot closer now then when we were younger, I get along better with my daddie
How many people live in your house?:: 4, 3 when i'm at school
Do you have family get togethers?:: no family nights, but on occasion we are all in one room
Do you like your dad or mom's side of the family better?:: Dad's for sure
Does your older brother/sister boss you around?:: Not even close....my parents used to leave me in charge instead of my older brother 'cause I was more responsible
Do you like your family?:: Sure, why not
--friends
best friend:: Alex (my boy :]), Andrea, Julie, Kevin, Ari, Libby, Chris (OK, OK, so I have trouble choosing...)
Easiest to talk to?:: Andrea or Alex
Gives best advice?:: Libby for sure
Craziest?:: Chris
Considers your family theirs?:: ....Prolly Andrea and Alex, Julie doesn't come over much, and nobody else has really met them
You consider their family yours?: Weeellll......Andrea's, Alex's, Julie's and Kevin's parents all LOVE me soo...
Who's parents are like your second mom and dad?:: eh
Loudest?:: CHRIS!!!!
Most athletic?:: Jess
--relationships
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: sure do
What's their name?:: Alex
How long have you known them?:: Technically since last year, but we only really started talking in August
Your anniversary?:: 11.22.2003
Are you in love?:: <3 <3 <3 <3 and damn proud of it :]
Have you ever been in love?:: not before now
Who have you been in love with?:: see above...
How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?:: before Alex, I had one official and one unofficial relationship
First kiss?:: Jon, at the haunted house
How old were you?:: ...it was 8th grade so I musta been....I dunno...between 13 and 15
Do you want to stay with your current boyfriend/girlfriend?:: Wouldn't have it any other way
Do they love you?:: I've never been happier :]
--have you ever
Held your breath until you passed out?:: Nope, but one day Alex, ONE DAY!
Wanted to die?:: not seriously I don't think
Commited a crime?:: yeah, lots
Saved someones life?:: can't say that I have
Stayed up all night?:: It's the only way I ever see the sunrise :]
Been to another country?:: Canada, Mexico, Belgium, France, Germany, Austria.
Loved someone so much it made you cry?:: yes
Been cheated on?:: Don't think so....
Let someone else take the blame for something you did:: unfortunately
Faked being sick?:: Yeah...
Been to the Astrodome?:: huh?
Dyed your hair?:: so highlights count?
--faves
Color:: Blue, green or maroon <--all dark
Number:: 7
Animal:: cute ones
Web Site: strong bad's email <- sounds good to me, or expoldingdog.com
Food?:: mmmmm BBQ ribs
Football team?:: I don't like one a whole lot.
Thing to do?:: sleep in, or snuggle by the fire <3
Sport to watch?:: Hockey
Sport to play?:: tennis
Holiday:: New Years Eve
Place to go:: I have a spot picked out in the woods behind my house :]
TV show :: Ironchef for fun, and Scrubs, X-files, Simpsons, Trauma: Life in the ER, and any type of Forensic shows
Place to eat:: Sagebrush, Olivegarden, Kruse and Muer
--random
How many pillows are on your bed?:: my bed at home and school none right now....but on the bed where I will sleep tonight there are 4, minus the one Alex will take down to the couch 'cause his parents won't let him sleep up here..grrrrr
What color is your toothbrush?:: green and while I think, well, more towards seafoam
What brand of toothpaste do you use?:: I have aquafresh at school, I think I'm using Arm and Hammer here
How old will you be when you graduate High School?::Done that already, i was 18
Have you ever been to a tailgate party?:: nope, I was always in the marching band getting ready :]
Gotten kicked out of Wal-Mart?:: Nope, and it would be Meijer anyways :]
Have you ever sat on Santa's lap?:: Yep
Gotten money from the tooth fairy?:: Yep
Do you have an online journal?:: Yep
Do you love someone?:: i love a lot of people, differently
Who?:: It would take to long to list...
What channel is your TV on?:: not my house so I'm not sure
--right now
What time is it?:: 2:37 p.m.
What are you wearing?:: jeans, turtle neck, sexy underwear ;]
How is your hair done?:: short, parted to one side, straight.
What color are your socks?:: skin tone :]
Who are you talking to?:: Nobody
Who was your last kiss?:: I kissed Alex goodbye when he went to work
Who hugged you last?:: Alex
Last word you said:: It was something along the lines of bye or I love you
Color of your nails?:: my nails are naked
Do you have make-up on?:: nope
What color are your shoestrings?:: they are white...but they're not on me right now
What's the date?:: January 5th 2004
It's kinda silly 'cause when Alex and I woke up today, there was noone else in his house. We got up and got ready and dressed and stuff, then I made us lunch, then he went off to get ready for work...I even tied his tie for him, better than he could :]. Anyways, we were joking around 'cause it felt like we were married or something. I was sending Alex off to work while I stayed home. So yeah. i should be back at school on Friday, so any Case kids out there, we will have to plan something fun to kick off the semester. :] | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Had fun on New Year's Eve. Rob and I met up with Matt at his friend's apartment. His friends were soo nice! It was also great to see Matt, Chad, and Phil again....it's the first time the F.U.C.K. crew has been together since high school I think. fun times...
Not much else has been going on. I've been pretty bored. I was going to go out tonight...but my Dad put a major guilt trip on me, and wanted me to stay home and go out to dinner with him, my mom and my bro and his wife (I know, it's still weird to think that I have a sister-in-law) then stay home 'cause he's leaving tomorrow. So I did, and I ended up going to CostCo with my father which was semi-productive. I got a set of rechargable batteries for the digital camera that I hope to get while I'm down in Ohio visiting Alex. It seems that best buy will never get it back in stock. :[
It's really cold in my house. I hate packing, and the laundry that inevitably accompanies it. Pajama pants are fun. I miss my friends from Case, and even some from home 'cause I didn't get to see them much. My Dad has been incredibly cool lately and I'm thankful that he is willing to drive me to Ohio early. I actually like driving stick-shift now--I didn't think that would ever happen. I miss Alex. Dirt roads + rain does not equal fun, as does winter without snow. Snuggling by the fire is now one of my favorite activities, although it is much nicer when done with someone you love <3. I already own waaaay to many Christmas ornaments thanks to my mother. The more I think about it, the more glad I am that I got a laptop instead of a desktop. I like my room at home. A lot. I watch nerdy shows like Forensic Files and I'm not afraid to admit it. I feel guilty and I wish I didn't. I also wish I could learn to worry less....thank my Father for that trait.
Rock on | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | So alone | | Time: | 01:45 am | | Current Mood: | devestated |
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| | I had to drop Alex off at the bus station 3 days early. His parents wouldn't even let him stay for New Year's. Needless to say, I am not in a good mood right now. I did have so much fun having him visit though, I just wish it could have lasted longer. It was nice to be able to hang out without having to worry about school and other shit. I'm going to try and sleep, then maybe I won't miss him as much. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | i got nothin.... | | Subject: | B-O-R-E-D | | Time: | 12:28 am | | Current Mood: | awake |
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| I have never slept so much in my life. I go to bed around 6 in the morning and sleep until 5 in the afternoon, it's crazy! Today, I took a shower, then just put on pajamas again. Soooooo lazy!
I ended up scraping together a 4.0 this semester, so I was happy, and very surprized about that.
I'm excited for once about seeing all my relatives, that's a new thing for me. We're throwing a surprize party for my mother's 50th birthday, and everyone will be there. I get to see my cousin's new baby for only the second time. She was only 5 days old last time I saw her.
I really have no plans this next week, I mean, I am prolly going shopping with my friend, then we have family stuff on Thurs and Fri...then on Saturday Alex is coming to visit! I'm soo excited. Our first order of business is going to go to a gun and knife show. I'm sure Ari would love to hear that since he teases me about being from Michigan "the gun state" all of the time.
I miss you and can't wait to see you!! <3 | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| I had such an awesome weekend. I went shopping and to dinner with Alex on Friday, then we met up with a bunch of other people to see Mindless Self Indulgence. I hadn't listened to the band much, but they definetly put on a good show. Sat went to dinner with Kev, Ari and Alex then to see the Windi and Jazzi concert, very cool. We then trekked all the way up past Giant Eagle to go to this party, which I enjoyed myself at. I actually knew a whole bunch of people there, and my friend Robert actually showed up to. I hadn't seen him in a while, so we caught up, then when the cops came him Alex and I went back to my room and hung out for a little while. The rest of the time was a mix between just being with Alex and studying a little bit for my finals.
I'm really enjoying myself these last two weeks despite the massive amount of guilt I have accumulated because of not studying.
Things that suck:
1) Finals
2) Parking Tickets
3) A whole month away from CASE
I've been finding out so much lately that first impressions are bullshit. People continue to surprize me, and I see the same happening to other people too. I've also been surprizing myself lately. I seem to have a lot of messed up views on different things. I know deep down that I probably have a reason for feeling these things, but I either don't know why, or just don't trust people enough to talk about it. I guess that's all the ranting I'll do for now..... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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